Find clarity in tranquility

2009-09-06T01:50:00.001-07:00

Day Fourteen of August

2008-08-13T17:04:00.000-07:00

Please stay by me.

I cant promise i'll be good

cause my will is weak.

but i'll get better a little by little

if you hold on to me with encouragement

my faith will stay

to learn to survive and love.

and no more a letdown.

G. M. S.

The two love and a principle i need to embrace in life.

How i wish

2008-08-12T10:39:00.000-07:00

How i wish

i was a simple boy
with a ordinary life
worked hard and get good grades
grow up as a simple man
and get a stable rice bowl

at the age of 28
marry a woman who dont nag
have 2 kids
with names like hayley/rachael or jason/kyle
and goes to church every Sunday to embrace God
and become someone they want to be

or

be a boy of dreams
becoming a man of success
living the rich and style
playing with desires
with women and more
scandalous and
maybe find a meaning in life then

Afterall its better than being a halfway ass
not knowing what he wants in life
bitching about his life.

Day ten of August

2008-08-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

Its not the first time
messing up great opportunities given to me
letting down those who helped me out
even though i told myself every decision we made all depends on ourselves,
i just don't have the will to carry on
in the end
i'm self hated

hazardous and broken

pathetic.

#@!*eV)#d&Q!$(+ ----> (:

2008-07-14T09:25:00.001-07:00

If we die this way, dull and ugly, no one will remember our names.

Life is much more than this,

but its short.

So spend very moment wisely
for the fun, pain and for your desires.

The stars that formed the bond

2008-07-10T10:39:00.000-07:00

Well, its been long since i last blogged.

Was away for holiday, went to somewhere far from city life.

Things were much at a slower pace, yet time passes like flashes through your mind.

Instant,

but memorable.

Beaches, gushy little waves, soft white sand, people, smiles and yea... tranquility.

Though

Mr big glory Sun wasn't there to give some heatwaves for the children to be baked crispy brown.

And Mrs Cloud was having a terrible heartache not seeing Mr big glory Sun.

So, she sprinkled her tears on the children on the last day.

Drenched but not soaked, these children still enjoyed their ending soon trip.

Fun, joy and laughter.

They were there for each others.

And out of it,

they knew that the future is unknown to all

and before any changes come along,

they just want to cherish the present.

Well,

at least thats what one of the children

felt

Cry me a river

2008-06-20T09:57:00.000-07:00

Truth or lies, nevertheless be it called facts in mind

there is no mercy in love

should i say, the existence of the love, is questionable from the beginning.

judgmental some say, but should they seen it through

nothing but ugly nature of

us, human beings

Desires.

to love or be loved, mere acts of filling up
our empty souls,
with self indulgence

sinked and bled for self selective target of love

all forms of pleasure; envy lust vengeance.

Even so, we

can never ever

forsake these so called sins.

All because we are human beings

so they say that, thats our saving grace.

But i wonder,

if

they have ever see

Love

as a felony?

for every moment

the pendulum swings

millions of hearts and souls stole.

Yet i wonder,

why

am i not capable of indulging these

special "one" and forever thoughts

capable of breaking me down

that i lust for much to say

please stay closer to my heart

like other human beings?

In the end
I can only play along
like mind games

with my heart love-dead.

Subtle smile

2008-06-15T02:55:00.000-07:00

i will keep all these secrets with me

and you wont find a trace of miseries

behind this iron mask.

Iris

2008-06-08T04:01:00.000-07:00

My mind is plagued with perplexities
of the future, me
flashing through, images they dont wait
and I'm standing in the midst of
flashing lights, moving traffic

holding on to a broken
hourglass
desperately trying to grasp
all that i had lost, without realizing

I'm losing what I've got

suspend time, will you?
bring me salvation, with clarity
in the arms of yours

make me feel like a child again.

GRAD PICS

2008-06-02T07:10:00.001-07:00

Me, Dummy and Ced (FYP TEAM OWNAGE)
Whos ACTING CUTE AGAIN?????? with ah pek and mei bing
SUGAR MOMMY TUTOR One of the nicest lecturer Ms Priya, Smart and knows how to enjoy life(:
He can do ballad... CAN YOU BELIEVE IT????
AARON CHUA BEE HOCK! He was Mr free bubble tea man and we love his treats :D
SMILEY WE (dummy, ah pek mei bing and me WEE)
BEST PIC COS I LOOK SO COOOLLL MUAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA
Started with 4 people then = 6.....
3s later... BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMM! I can barely see myself ...
HAHA COS WEE IS SO POPULAR! LIKE #*(&$@(#*&$@ COOOOLLLLL. haha i know damn BHB till cannot TAHAN. ITS A JOKE SO YOU GOTTA PLAY IT ALL THE WAY MAN.
yea too many camwhores and wannabes! ;)
DUMMY AND SMARTIE. (PS. i tell you ah, she really fat liao. Her face so round like bread super man)
MR MOK VERY NICE TUTOR. HES NEWBIE SO TREAT US NICE. (bet 3 years later he would be complaining teaching already)
this guy (EXTREME LEFT) hopped in, CHAO EXTRA! haha bet he see dummy taking pic with us he wanna charp in . As long as got girl he dont mind. JC and I looked so TE for some reasons..... and i cant remember his name (EXTREME RIGHT, JC's friend) look so EMO.
TE and AH PEK and PREGNANT LOOKING DUMMY :)
something struck my head. I cant bend it straight like beckham.

THATS ALL. i still got one pic with johnson but i think its with him so ask him if you wanna see my face.

Was it really over?

2008-05-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

Yea when it comes to this. I'm a stupidfu c k

I should have know that its unavoidable

but i din realized that i actually

do

fucking

think

of her

like i used to

ever since grad day.

Yea stupidfu c k

I had made my choice

and i wont let go of my pride

for that whats we men are

besides its not even mutual in the first place.

Or i think so, like dummy said.

Fucked up

Parcelled these memories

2008-05-29T03:46:00.000-07:00

Today is the day

Graduation day,

whatever it seemed to be,

marks the end of my adolescent years.

The curtain is drawing as the light fades off

the night is closing in

and we knew it all along

that someday

this day

would come for us

The finale

of this chapter of life

nostalgic like rainy days

very

and all along

i felt apologetic to you, dummy

always so ever nice to me through these years, even till today.

A bouquet of red roses, delicate and velvet for you

and yea kinda awkward for the very first time

its hard to say lines that others dont see it coming outta your mouth.

and i did ask if we could hug for awhile, as friends nothing more.

but you're not cool with it i know you're very set to give Joel the only one everything.

understandable

but i really wanna tell you

Joel is really a lucky guy. And i couldn't wish for more

to have you as my friend sincerely. Many others out there in the hall, could be my real close friends.

but things don't turn out like what we see

even so I'm really contented we ended things this way.

For you stood by me when i'm was my darkest hours of life.

I hope that someday

we will meet up again with you talking about your life and i share mine

and i can hug you in my arms as my appreciation

like i wished so for long.

Thanks again, for a friend, for the little mp3

afterall

its too gay to say

LOVE
WEEKY

haha (:

Will post more pics when dummy send me.

Oh and terence is being a bastard

saying i secretly taking a glance or two at another her

FOR LIKE ALL THESE YEARS.. its being too overly exaggerated.

and yea, i admit. But you have to too. Shes always the centre of attention, even today.

Haha but its what she has always been receiving, guys just keep coming more for her

a little less of mine, wouldnt hurt her anyway.

The story will end today

Graduation day.

EH BLOGGED LIAO

2008-05-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

Yes Yes damn loonnng never blog funny stuff

Partly because of work

plus i have been conducting the "walk to paste" flyers all over the place

over the last few days

and particularly yesterday

i paste the walk

from andrew's going to be "new" home all the way to serangoon north chapel via serangoon mrt route.

YES YES MOLEY IS NOW BURRRRRRRRRNNNNING PASSIONATELY TO TRAIN HIMSELF FOR ARMY ARMY ARMY ARMY!

come to think

botak is still ok

cos

i had some nightmares few days ago

with me getting hooked to some SUPER DUPER BIG DISGUSTING SPIDER trying to sink its fangs into my skin

then

A SWARM OF DISGUSTING BEES trying to ride me (haha sound so wrong =\ )

and

the last scare was all my hair dropped off like some cancer patients

hell scarryy

like if you no hair = only moles
like monk like that

of course.. i'm not talking about hairy moles that CURLS LIKE WTF CHEE CO PEK type...

AMERICAN BOY

2008-05-24T11:50:00.000-07:00

Lets dance to this number one champion sound

Yeah, wee king is gonna remix this track now

with gold diggers and so flyyy Kanye West

with chic chick Estelle and her Brooklyn boy

singing

Take me to a trip, I'd like to go someday
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA
I really want to come kick it with you
You'll be my American Boy

cos quick bucks and livin rich

is what we do babe

like Posh Spice and bacon ham

Tell me

I'm your AMERICAN BOY, yeah AMERICAN BOY

and I will goddamn give you American life

singing

Take me to a trip, I'd like to go someday
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA
I really want to come kick it with you
You'll be my American Boy

Broadway this way --->

baby this way

Hotel Hilton is just the way

singing

Would you be my love, my love?
Would you be mine?
Would you be my love, my love?
Could you be mine?

Take me to a trip, I'd like to go someday
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA
I really want to come kick it with you
You'll be my American Boy

you gotta show me how you gonna do this

tonight on my bed

and i will take you to heaven babe

be your American boy, American boy

Pleasure and Pain

2008-05-19T02:16:00.000-07:00

Cause I've seen countless of heartbreaks and tears

its just suicidal to believe anymore

that love

is what we need to make the world go round

if there is one love to be left

indulging in

it can only be

self

love

and you should know falling for the likes of me

is

suicidal

OT OT OT

2008-05-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

NOOOOOOO MOOD TO BLOG FOR THIS WEEK....

WORKING OT KILLLLS...

But oh well, I have decided to stay in my JAR BAA LANG job

cos they are nice people. Got a free motorbiked ride home today after OT

I TELL YOU

RIDING BIG MOTORBIKES ARE COOOL

JUST LIKE

MEEEEEEEEEEE

THE COOLEST SENGKANG BOY

BWAHHAHHAHAA

(:

WHO WANNA GO CLUBBBINNNGGGG?

2008-05-12T09:12:00.000-07:00

SAY YES BABY!

Gotta fly, to you I say

2008-05-10T10:22:00.000-07:00

I cant stay this way any longer

The time has come

I have gotta fly

and you cant tie me down anymore

cause my heart's dead

like this shattered glass portrait

framing you and me

and its hard to believe

that we thought we were meant to be

when i know nothing of love

in your dictionary

call that love, or money?

If its okay, this is okay

I'll make the best outta me

and you would lived off sucking up fool's gold

till the day

you wonder

whats real to your heart

but only realized

this gold of me

you had lost indeed

Beautiful

2008-05-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

Shes

more than what i can describe

She has got

beautiful soul

be serenaded by her voice
and mesmerized by her eyes

Marie Digby

XOXO

JEANNIE THE SUPERWOMAN

2008-05-08T06:53:00.000-07:00

Lol this is jeannie for you at the moment.

THANKS JEANNIE I WILL BUY YOU LOLIPOPS! XD

TOO PLAIN

2008-05-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

Its dammn sucky

spending hours trying to learn step by step on

h ow to

a pp l y

b log sk i n
(another reason for the fact that i couldn't find something that fits the theme too) , so lets forget about creating on my own.

Got help from Jeannie ---> BEING NICE

and at the moment i bet shes $*(#@&$#()%*$()&%)@$ saying why shes so TE to help me out

haha just hope she dont puke much blood.

God will bless her for such kind deed. :D

And Nelly says it right

2008-05-07T03:49:00.000-07:00

You should know the _______________ is holy.

Do you really wanna go?

And I say

THE MOLES ARE HOLY

Do you really
wanna know?

P.S. dont believe you can jolly burn in hell and **** haha kidding.

Surf-ed some content which basically summarizes that MOLES are significant part of your body.

And just like palm reading, mole reading (also termed as moleosophy) has it influences over many parts of the world.

E.g India, China and blah blah

haha lets get to the real fun now

TTTUUURNNN TTUUURRRNNN TURRRRNNNNNN drum rolling*

LETS PLAY

SPOT THE HOLY MOLEYS

ON WEEKY'S FACE!

HAHA FUCKERS I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE REALLY KEEN ON SEEING MY UGLY PHOTO!

of course i wont let it be, even if i'm fugly in photos. (:

TAKE 3 SNAP SNAP SNAP*

Ahhhhh not bad not bad. Samuuuuel the natural camwhore sure have taught me some good stuff (:

hahahahaha Aiya, I know you guys really want to laugh off your asses
So here you go

Preseeeennnting UGLY PICTURES!!!

EH SHIT, I AM NOT THE natural camwhore! HES SUPER VAIN WORSE THAN MY MOTHER!

WAAAAAAAAA, when was i able to make the Singapore OK! sign so small when its only a few steps away?

hahahhaa dont take it too seriously people

atlas

UGLY ME

And i know you really love this picture (:

Jokes aside haha
as for the comparison i will just announce the result

I have got

1. Longevity ( Enjoy life i guess )

2. Uncontrollable sexual lust ( I admit... its like jackpot )

3. Good luck ( Good so far )

4. High intelligence ( Indeed, but there are many more who are knowledgeable or wiser. Note: knowledge and wisdom are two different things )

5. Disaster prone ( I will survive! )

6. Enjoyment of gourmet food and good life ( SOOOOO TRUE )

7. Prone to accident with cattle and horse ( I'm horsey you know, or you mean i should stay away from my sis pony? haha i think in this context it means cars? or milk farm? )

If you have holy moleys maybe you wanna go check it out? article#1 & article#2

I'm the jester you love for more (:

Sail, and dont be lost

2008-05-04T14:55:00.000-07:00

The future awaits us

or

are we the ones waiting as it passes us by?

Somebody's Wee

2008-05-03T10:57:00.000-07:00

Somebody

would you make me fall for you deeply?

and we have children that look like us?

till the day we die

would you make our love preserve everlastingly?

If you're that somebody

i hope to keep you closer to my heart

Durian on board

2008-05-02T04:24:00.001-07:00

On my way home from work

The bus was crowded with passengers

and i could smell DURIAN.

Although it is clear that no DURIAN DURIAN is allowed to be on board.

So i kept staring at the Ban List

no durians

not eating and drinking

and cant remember

but for a moment

a light bulb just KA-CHING!

and i got an idea.

SBS, SMRT and blah blah should seriously ban people from showing too much unecessary affections in the public.

and i got them a ban poster!

SOOOOO NICE OF THE GREAT SENGKANG BOY (:

and here it is.

Dont you find the 2 characters VERY FAMILIAR????????????????

LIKE DAMN! THEY LOOK LIKE A & A!!!

OMFG

OMG

heehee

Formless is Art

2008-04-30T11:56:00.000-07:00

Formless it is
diversified into boundless of categories
anything, everywhere

What we speak of
and define
is an expression of Art

Words and letters
painting of colors
and movements of a being

they are all in all considered Art.

Yet the greatest piece in life is
nothing but us, the human race

the ultimate Art of living

For it is imperfect
just like the flawed humans
capable of gaining knowledge and bring about endless revolutions with innovations
Thus,
we are masterpieces in the making

Found some Art forms from a book. Titled Naive art.

Thats all for tonight.
I shall say goodbye for now.

Sin, and thats my saving grace

2008-04-28T08:23:00.000-07:00

The pendulum swings,
the dust settles,
and we grow older each day

You are always there for me,
since i was a little child
I know
you adore me dearly

Probably 'cause
i was vulnerable
fragile and easily bullied
Your worries had driven you far
to protect me all you could
and only willing to let go
until
i can stand on my own when i fall
someday

but you never realized back then,
that your love was a double edged sword
I was in bliss yet
i fell deeper into your arms
so deep, it hurts

Clinging to you where ever, when ever.
Inseparable, just like one entity
my over reliance it was

Along the way,
many unpleasant experiences happened
Sometimes,
i came home crying
with wounds on my body
I couldnt express myself clearly
that i want you to tender me like you always do

Wailing cries, chores, and everything
The wall against all built up pressure
crumbled down
and suffocated you

I couldnt understand them as a child
and i began to shun away from you as a teen
for my pain
my selfish will
had made your heart bled for years
My love was hanging on a thin line
and the bitterness was killing it
bits by bits

Only few years back then
i came to my senses.
For all that you had done
i couldnt return any
yet you did not stop giving

Till now
i still couldnt make myself
to

Your undying love
is Godsend
and it keeps me alive with a heart
trying to figure how whats love

I know someday
you will leave me
to a faraway place
with white feathers
in heavenly grace

And i will regret not saying how much i love you
i must muster my courage soon
for time
it don't stops

Right now
i can only confide to you here
as a reminder everyday

I want to speak
as i embraces you
like a child again

So mother
would you forgive me?

I have always love you dearly

YEAYEA RIGHT!

2008-04-26T07:19:00.000-07:00

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHAAA (ps. horse cries!) FEEL GOOD TIME!

Feel like going some stripper pub just like the one in Gossip girl!
(Of course, SG dont have one that is like that, cuz theres no angmohs*)

Hmmmm maybe i should club someday? (: and do ridiculous dance moves like BWAHAHAHHAHAHA!

LOL actually is more like this:

haha yea i'm a joker ;)

and you know you love me x.o.x.o

2008-04-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

One of the song from Gossip Girl OST

Are you

feelin the vibe now?

Jailbird

2008-04-21T04:12:00.001-07:00

ITSSSS A LLOOONG DAY....
ended with abrasions and cut all over my body

Second day of work, yes just second day
but i already feel like ZHAR BOKing

coz

tomorrow i have to work OVERRRRRRRRRRRTIMMMMMMMMMMMME and i fear that it is going to be far worse than any other working days
tormenting uh? Indeed

and the people supervising us still got the nerve to throw most of the work to us while they handle the simple simple things
REALLY FEEL LIKE throwing them off the window and say

" MUAHAHAHHAHAHA FEEL MY WRATH YOU MURTHA-FUCKERS! BURN IN HEEEEEEEEEELLLLL!"

It aint gonna happen of course

after all, i will still be the new guy whom they dont seem to be able to remember my name or just simply dont know what to call me.

Since one of the temp guys is also have the same name Wei Jie
So whenever they need me to do some SAI KANG they just call me EH YOU COME HERE with LAI LAI hand language

and if i have nothing to do i will walk to one of them and say ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR?? roll my eyes*

SAD LIFE
NO NAME
NO HORSEY
NO WEEKY
): <----- trying to be emofuck

From what the temp guys told me, THEY MIGHT BE GOING TO ZHAR BOK in mid june which is 2-3 weeks before the end of the contract

if they going to zhar bok

i have to too

coz

I CANT TAKE 4 persons workloads

48-49 days before i can
FLY FLY FLY

Slave driven.

2008-04-18T05:06:00.000-07:00

Friday, first day of work

Woke up late in the morning
and i cant fucking bathe because someone else was hogging the bathroom
and if i waited for my turn
i tell you ah really ah
FUCKING LATE

1st day
go working without bathing
my hair looks fucked up
and my face is oil-ed
and i wore a freaking SHORT polo tee without realising that i have to bend here squat there to do JAR PAR LANG work. (do all the screwing work to furnitures, clean the floor and empty the rubbish bin)
its okay
i am a guy
no worries
showing some skin

BUT
I FORGOT TO WEAR BELT
and my jeans were like falling every 5mins
and when i bend down
my underwear keep revealing

TMD
already dont feel happy in the morning
then now like so laughingstock wannabe

TMDDDD
and the temp staff there
told me that i have been conned to work
this place sucks
we dont do computer stuff and the workplace is so fucking wulu
and we really like slaves to those black polo tee full time people there
do these do that

yes
and i heard that 3-4 PEOPLE ZHAR BOK
after a few days

wonder if they have to pay the penalties
and if i have the determination to work till END JUNE

and calculated if minus off CPF the monthly pay is 700+ bucks
pathetic but still
with the pay = i can pay off my debts and bills + can go out abit more

For this, i can tolerate.

SLAAAAAAAAAAAVE DRIVEN

Panic before the midnight strikes

2008-04-17T06:47:00.001-07:00

WHERE IS THIS PLACE?????????????????????????????????

GOD LAH WHY IS UBI SO WUULU???????????????

really hope things will go on smoothly in this company.

duh. my first temp job i have to finish the contract no matter what

out to earn monnnnneeey.

pray pray*

Echoes of voices within

2008-04-15T19:06:00.000-07:00

How long have it been?
For you to open up like this
the things you have always hide from others?

I wonder

Lost track of time?
The matter of fact
all these years
you have never reveal yourself
This is just what you are

Or maybe
you are still desperately grasping on
the hope that
someone
someday
will understand you?

you're being a real fool

It will be really good for you to just dismiss this thought
After all these years
havent you experience enough pain?

Those pain

They dont amount to anything close to
the pain

when you look into the mirror
and ask yourself

whos the one staring back at you?

and to me, and you voices
this is getting real old
trying so hard to recognize what being the real me

and what i have become
so self destructive
and i dont know how long more
i can keep in control

voices, voices
a new one is emerging soon
its a voice
of a monster

Tuesday

2008-04-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

Tuesday 15 Apr

Woke up at 1p.m
Went to have lunch at koufu, mom was with me
Then i "ps-ed" mom to join samuel chua, who have to go down taka for some submission of application forms.
And recruit express andrew kinda got me a job, yet to be confirmed though
Then we went to walk around Far East plaza and PS
Ate some finger food
Drank pokka tea 2 for 2.20 bucks
Found a "one of a kind" shirt which cost only 5 bucks
Went home
Bathed
Dinner
TV
Com
Blog

these are not what i want to type for my every single post.
Boring...........................................................................................................................

Indeed very

Time to manga and youtubing

The monster you don't know

2008-04-14T10:29:00.000-07:00

Empty bottles lying on stained floor.
Cigarette butts filled wine glasses on table top
and pieces of clothes dragged down the hall

Boys and girls fleeing the scene right away,
leaving behind evidences of their so much fun and joy

The night is closing in,
the party is over

In the midst of confusion and noise
i found her

there she is, leaning her slender body against the kitchen door
taking a puff or two
tipping the ashes into the wine glass
with her long fingers

her glossy red lips
mascara-ed eyelashes
and doll-like face

caught my eyes

her eyes meet mine

a moment of intense
its more than lust

and she knows
that i'm drawn to her
and i know
she feels the same way too

step by step
i'm staggering my way there

closer

closer

each breath
is getting harder
and harder to take

shes the only one that has ever make me feel this way

but time is running

seconds by seconds
shes fading from my vision

seconds after seconds
i'm coming back to reality

seconds, seconds
shes becoming more like a fantasy

and i know
shes never gonna come back again

soon

it will be all over

my mind will be drifting into another world.

another day
another girl

but i will never know their names

so good bye, my ladies

No one understands, and they never will.

The dark secrets of me.

WEE SAYS

2008-04-14T08:55:00.001-07:00

HOLY SH!T $%^#@#*@

The big news on weekypedia debut is

ANDREW TOUCH-ED~~~ ALAN!!!

and wee can say that it AIN'T SIMPLE...

its been awhile, that we know theres something ongoing between the two

like 爱昧 or whatever it is, something sensationally grosteque

but we NEVER expect them to take ACTIIOOOON SOOOOOOOOO FREAKING WHOA!

TSK TSK TSK TSK

andrew andrew

now touchy touchy, later how?

are you ready to take responsibility?

evil grin* (:

P.S. THIS IS WHAT YOU GUYS GET FOR MAKING ME ROLL ON THE MRT STATION FLOOR! MUAHAHAHAHA BURN BURN BURN~! STUPID MASTER! MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAAAAA